Embies Day3

Had my phone call from the clinic today to tell me if I should go in today for a 3DT or Tuesday for  a 5DT.

All embies are doing really well, so we are booked in for a 5 day Blastocyst Transfer on Tuesday at 12.30pm and hopefully we will have some frosties as well.

Now the pressure is really on for them to implant, and I am so scared because of my endo that the scarring from the adhesions and all the surgery over the years will affect the implantation.

Physically, I'm still suffering, but not as bad, I just have bouts of unbearable pain, but I can cope, I cooked a roast for the family today and started to get pains half way through, I also nearly managed to severe my thumb when chopping the swede, so it probably wasn't my wisest move.
Oh and I haven't been for a BM since I had the shits on Thursday, I don't even feel the need to go, so I wouldn't call it constipated, and I have been eating like a horse for the past few days, so I don't know where all this food is going? I know I need to go, but I just don't need to! I know the bloating will feel tons better when I do finally go!  I also suspect the pessaries are playing a part in this and are clogging me up somewhat, as they explained that I cannot take them vaginally until after the transfer as the wax in the pessary will clog up around the cervix and make it hard to get through the cervix for transfer, so I imagine this is the same for the back as well.

Also the conversation of what to do if we have 7 frosties has come up, of course we won't have 7 babies, and even if my IVF fails and I have other tries, I certainly won't be trying 7 times, or will I?
If my IVF fails, will I donate them? But how would I cope knowing someone out there has 100% mine and Bongo's baby and I don't??

So much to think about...........