So after my major hissy yesterday, I had a chat with Bongo and told him how I really feel that this hasn't worked. Of course he is disappointed, but he trusts my instincts, and I feel better for getting it off my chest. I feel more at peace with this and less inclined to test today, what will be will be.
I have a funny feeling I won't be making it to Saturdays OTD though, I was woken up at 4am with some serious AF pains and the start of a migraine. I have different AF pains on the lead up to, I have 'cramps' up to 5 days before AF (what I have been having) then the day before and the day off, I have these really deep dragging cramps and feel very wet, which I have had since 4am, so I have a feeling that she could make an appearence before OTD. I keep running to the loo because I think the witch has made an apperance, but maybe the Cyclogest is the only thing actually stopping the bleed. Oh and (.)(.) compleely stopped hurting last night, but for some reason, I'm ok with this and have stopped poking and prodding.
I know when AF turns up, I will be in bits, or if I make it to Saturday, seeing that bfn will break my heart, but I think talking to Bongo last night and preparing myself for it has really helped me come to terms with it. I think my biggest fear is telling Bongo, but I have already prepared him for it, so when it happens, it's not so much of a blow.
I would like to say a big big big thank you to all my girls yesterday for their support and help through that bad day and for always being there. I know how hard it must be for some of you to come here and read this.
If you're instincts are right, I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteYou will need to grieve for that cycle that failed I understand that 100% (well as much as someone who hasn't been thru it can understand anyway!)
But remember that article I posted from metro? Frozen ET are always more successful as your body is less traumatised from the Whole drugged up craZiness & egg retrieval GA etc.
Always that hope for future! I lOve u lady xxx
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ReplyDeleteI want to be all positive and uppity but I think you know to trust in your instincts so I'm going to just listen to you.
Cat's right, all the new research shows that FETs are more successful because your body has been given a chance to come off all the hormone treatments and "rest".
(hugs)
:( You really think so? I've been watching and waiting. Oh lord, that sounds stalker-ish! Lol.
ReplyDeleteI thought Fri was the test? Sat, I have to be at the beck and call of Bridezillas and people needing custom Christmas cards. *Eye roll* But I'll be on at 3PM Central, 9PM GMT.
xx's
Thanks Girls, well only 18 hours to go, then we will know for certain.
ReplyDeleteThank you for always being there, through the ups and down xxx