Date Didn't Go So Well..

Yesterdays date didn't go so well. (Even though I wore watching underwear to my surroundings, the dildo cam just didn't appreciate it)

So, they like a lining of between 7-9mm and follicles to be 18mm.
I had an AFC of 17 at the beginning of this cycle, I wasn't expecting all of them to grow, but some at least)

My lining is at 8.7mm, so a perfect lining.
Then we get to my follies, I have 8 on my right ovary and 7 on my left, not a bad number, but their sizes are crap. I have a lead folly at 17mm on my left, but all the rest are at 8 ,9, 10 and 12mm, so not a good response to the Menopur.

They have decided that they want me to keep stimming until Monday, (on the same dose) then back for a scan again, hoping that some of the follies will catch up, and I may lose the lead folly. They would rather I had a few catch up and lose one, than only go in for the one and lose 14 others.

I haven't coped with this news very well, although I was expecting something to go wrong. I keep trying to convince myself that maybe this was my problem naturally, yes I was ovulating, but maybe my eggs were just not mature enough?? At least they are keeping an eye on it and helping it along with medication, but I am so scared they will cancel my cycle on Monday.

I had pain yesterday morning around my left ovary, and she said this was due to the lead folly, so I expect I should be feeling that sort of pain all round when the follies are big enough, but I'm just not feeling anything, except the occasional twinge.

I have been put on complete bed rest, luckily Bongo is off for 2 weeks now, but it's really hard! Even though I am a lazy cow, knowing I can't actually get up and do anything is doing my head in already!!