Game Over

As you can probably tell by the title, it was BFN.

I tested late of Friday night, but of course I was expecting it, I had a little cry, but I think I'm dealing with it quite well. Not as bad as I thought.
Bongo hasn't dealt with it quite so well.

I then tested again at 6.15am on Saturday morning with the official test they sent me home from the clinic with and of course that is BFN.

Bongo has taken on the traits of a LTTTCer, he keeps going back to the tests to check if anything has changed or if we missed a little line, changes the angles in the light, holds it up to the light, but of course nothing has changed.

I rang the clinic and left a message to say it was BFN and could I stop the Cyclogest, but being the div I am, I forgot to leave my number, so no one has rung me back, so I have just continued with the pessaries, my last one is tonight anyway, and I will ring them back tomorrow.

Of course AF hasn't shown, because of the pessaries, so maybe she will make an apperance in the next few days when I stop the meds, but strangly, all pains have gone since I done the tests. I have NO pains whatsoever.

I will use my last test Monday morning, as then it has been 48 hours since my last. Not that I'm expecting anything to show up!!

Next step is to have a follow up appointment, so hopefully that will be in a couple of weeks, and there is a light at the end of this big long dark tunnel...............
My sister rang me yesterday morning and asked what the next steps are, I told her we have frosties, so we will have to start saving our pennies, and blow me down with a feather, if she didn't just come out with 'the money is here waiting for when your ready to go' my wonderful sister has offered to pay, not lend, the money for go for a FET.
My sister is not a very approachable person, I can't even ask to borrow a fiver because she is such a miserable moo bag, and she had text me the night before to ask what I want for Christmas, and I asked for wellie boots, so she asked me to send her a link to the ones I want, cheekily, I asked for a pair of yard boots which are around £40 expecting to be told not to take the pss, then she sent me a link back to some wedge wellies asking if I wanted them instead, I looked at the price and they were £100!!!! I was trying to pluck up the courage to ask that instead of spending £100 on a pair of boots for me, can she put the money in a savings account to start saving towards my FET when she just came out with that she will pay for the lot and the cash is there when I'm ready.
This has definitley softened the blow somewhat.

I am scared about 'wasting my sisters money' if it doesn't work again. And I am adamant, no matter what they say this time, I am putting at least 2 frosties back!! But I am wondering if they are going to say that I need surgery on my cervix first.

I have loads more I want to say, but my brain is going to expload! I will pop back and update as soon as I remember things.