End Of Treatment

So, after days of waiting for a phone call from the clinic, I rang them back, as I still have fresh heavy bleeding and clots.
I rang and spoke to the receptionist and asked if I was supposed to have a phone call back and she said I should have done.
An hour later, a nurse rings me back and was very apologetic and cannot work out why I had been forgotten about and hadn't had a phone call back after my bfn.
I will receive an end of treatment outline letter from them shortly and I have the option to go in and discuss the treatment cycle with them.
I told her about the bleeding and she said it's pretty normal after the amount of drugs I have had in my body this cycle but that if it's still bad at the weekend, I am to give them a ring and go and see a doctor.

I asked her about having a FET. And for some reason, I had got in it my head that the clinic were avoiding me because none of my embies made it to freeze. But she assured me, all 5 had made it to freeze.
She explained the two different ways of doing a FET. Medicated or unmedicated, I asked which one has a higher success rate, but she said that a study recently had shown no difference between the two. She also said that because I have regular - between 28-32 day - cycles, I am eligible to go for an unmedicated cycle. The earliest I can go in for  FET is February as they like us to have 3 normal periods before they do anymore treatment.

So, unmedicated is that I go in at the beginning of my cycle for baseline scans, check out which will be a lead folly and B/W. Then I will do OPKs leading up to ovulation and when I get my surge, they will do the ET/FET 7 days later, then hpt 10 days later. Its as simple as that.

A medicated cycle would begin on CD21 again to DR, the usual scans and B/W on CD3 and then 2 weeks of Estrodial tablets. Then the FET.

Everything with a medicated FET will be timed exactly and we will know exactly when everything is happening. This obviously wouldn't be the case with an unmedicated cycle and it will be down to my body behaving. Also with the unmedicated, if I have my surge at a weekend, they will not do the transfer at a weekend, so the cycle will be cancelled and changed to the next cycle. But I won't be charged for the cancelled cycle.

A medicated FET is £790 + £250-£400 (for meds)
Unmedicated FET £790

I also explained that I am worried about any future transfer after what happened with this last one one (still a part of me wonders if the trauma from the transfer contributed to the bfn) and she said when I make the appointment for the end of treatment , I can discuss this with them and it is possible that they may dilate my cervix before the transfer, so we can make a treatment plan regarding this.

I am kind of swayed to having a natural FET this time, I've tried the cycle where I'm pumped full of medications, so maybe going natural will make a change.
I also don't want to take the piss out of my sister and expect to pay more if she doesn't have to. Its not completely necessary that I have a medicated cycle so I don't see why I can't give an unmedicated a go?

If this one doesn't work, I will save up along with my friends and family and do a medicated one in the future. I have 10 years to save up, I'm sure £1200 won't take too long to save up. And hopefully if I get this job I have been asked to apply for, I can do it in a couple of months.
Its all food for thought.

Emotionally I am still a wreck, Bongo's first day back at work today and I was really dreading it. I was so upset last night at the thought of him having to go back and I hardly slept. I hate being apart from him just now. I'm not normally a needy person, so I don't know why I feel like this. He is on his way home from work now and I can't wait for him to get in.
I am also exhausted and in so much pain. I think the amount of blood loss I am having is having an effect and the worry of that has also played a part. Hopefully it will ease up soon.

A bit disappointed I have to wait until February to have another shot at this, but at least it gives my body time to recover from the emotional and physical battering it has these past couple of months.