I have lost my belly button, if anyone finds it, can they return it please??
My bump seems to have 'dropped' since last week.
And I'm sure I am going to give birth to an octopus, she's all arms and legs and wriggly. She makes my whole belly move when she moves, I'm sure she's running out of room already!!
So, I had my VBAC clinic appointment last Wednesday, and I'm very confudeled about the whole business if I'm honest!
If I had just been given the information booklet we were given at this appointment, by the consultant a few weeks ago, when we should have been given it, then I would have gone in with a whole different frame of mind.
The upshot of it is, I am having a VBAC, unless something crops up on my growth scans or appointments between now and my due date.
I am surprisingly OK with this, Bongo still has a few worries, but we decided to get our heads around the idea, not stress about it, as we will go into labour and birth not mentally prepared for it, and that is the worst possible thing for any of us.
I am quite excited (yeah, I am mental) about the idea of being at home and going into labour, making all those calls to say it's started. I am also of the frame of mind, that I really do want to prove myself wrong, that I CAN DO THIS!! Or at least give this a damn good try!
I have a 5 in 1000 chance of my scar rupturing, so I will be monitired throughout labour, which is kind of annoying as well as reasurring. I am sure I will be one of these women who want to be mobile during labour, I will want to bathe, bounce on my birthing ball (which arrived today!!!) I cannot labour or give birth in our natural birthing unit, and I will be labouring in a room right next door to maternity theatre 'just in case'. I still have an issue with forceps, ventouse and an episiotomy, but I am coming round to the fact that if I am at 10cm and just can't push for whatever reason, they would rather do a forceps or ventouse delivery, than take me for a section, which is understandable.
I have another Consultant appointment after a growth scan on 1st October, and I will be discussing a few issues, such as my wonky cervix - will this affect dialation and birth? Can I be monitored being mobile, such as using a handheld doppler instead of the CTG machine if i want to bathe, and making it very very clear that if something, anything was to go wrong with me or the baby, that I pushed and pushed for an ELCS and was basically talked out of it.
So, I am at the stage, where we are thinking about our birthing plan. We will probably be writing two, one for a VBAC delivery and one for an ELCS, depending on if they change their mind at some point between now and 13th December.
I am also thinking about packing my hospital bag this week. I'm going to pack for a 24 hour stay VBAC and if I need anything else, either Bongo can bring it in or I can add it before we go to the hospital.
Charlie has also decided he would like to be at the hospital, but not actually watch me give birth!! I've always wanted to have him there, always wanted to have him close to me during this time. He really is my closest friend, support and I trust him more than anyone else in the world. He has grown up so much over the past 3 months and I think he will handle the situation well, it's completley up to him when the time comes if he wants to be there, and I am happy for him to be. (He has said that I am not allowed to shout at him when I have a pain though!!)
I'm so proud of my son, I really am. I honestly thought this would go the other way, he has had me all to himself for nearly 14 years, I thought the transition would be very very hard for him, but he has adjusted so well. I also make a point that if anyone buys anything for baby they are not to leave Charlie out! Even if it's just a sweet. I have sat him down and explained that there are things we need to buy that are essential for the baby, and I can't always buy the equivilent for him, and he told me to stop being so stupid, I don't have to keep making it up to him, I think he realises that I have tried very hard not to have him pushed out by all the baby talk, and things. I also explained Christmas will be very different, we can't afford to spend as much as we usually do and it will be very hectic with a new baby, and he really is very understanding.
We have also put up the Moses basket in the bedroom, just so the pets get used to it. I have lined it with tin foil (cats hate tin foil) and I have put the cat net over it. So far, so good and no one seems interested in it! It may be a different matter when there's a nice warm snuggly baby stinking of milk in there though! We are slowly trying to get the cat out of the bedroom, especially now she is used to the dog (it's only taken a year) so hopefully, we can mover her into Charlie's room/front room.
Another conversation has cropped up this week.......... contraception.
Now, I may come across as selfish here, but you never know what the future holds. We haven't thought about it, not really. We are just very very grateful for what we have right here, right now, and what Decemeber will bring.
But, I don't want to stick ANY hormones in my body afterwards, I have learned my lesson!! Especially that evil Depo!! IF, we decide one day to TTC again, i don't want to have to worry about any hormones that I have put in my body, so that rules out, the pill, implant, mirena coil and depo. I don't think having a coil in any way will be good, because of my cervix and (stupidly?) I worry about any internal damage it may cause. This leaves condoms, withdrawl method or abstinence? But to be honest, I hate condoms. And the last time we used them, when DRing for IVF, we managed to fuck that up, he put it on inside out and back to front!!! I know, I know, practice makes perfect, but it just doesn't feel the same does it? And I don't think he will be happy with abstinence!! HA Ha
So, on to this week. I have my GTT appointment tomorrow, I'm really not looking forward to that! I am not aloowed to eat or drink (except water) from 8pm tonight. I don't know how I'm going to do it! I'm such a pig at the moment!! I have to be at the hospital by 8am, they will take my fasting bloods, then I have to drink a glucose drink and then have ablood test again 2 hours later. The only saving grace is Bongo will be on standby with my order from the coffee cart of a latte with double shot of esspresso and almond syrup!! I had one evry morning on my way into work, so I know it's good stuff from there!!
I also have to have ablood test tomorrow to see how much Anti-D they need to give me on Friday. I almost need to take out a mortgage to pay the car parking fee's the amount of times I'm at this hospital in the next few weeks.
Well, that's about it for now. Although there is a very special person I would like to thank, just for being her. She knows who she is!! I love you so much and I'm so grateful to have you as my friend.
Very cute belly photos! Count yourself lucky to be able to do the birth that way. Over here, they're almost all exclusively hospital births and the surrounding area hospitals, that do the birthing rooms, have wait lists. Basically, as soon as you start trying you need to put your name on the list, lol.
ReplyDeleteEverything is going to go superb!