14 weeks 2 days

Hindsight is a bitch isn't it?
Why don't I exert myself more, instead of being spoken over?
I'm annoyed with my MW.

When I asked about another ELCS, she asked about the circumstances surrounding the ELCS, and yes, it most certainly was an elective! But she wouldn't listen to the story and kept telling me it was an emergency section, WHICH IT WASN'T!!

Here's the story - I had a growth scan at 34 weeks, to assess about the birth. BUT, they picked up a problem with the blood flow through the placenta, it wasn't a life or death situation for the baby, and I was monitored every other day at the Fetal Assessment unit, up until my next Consultant appointment at 37 weeks, he was happy with baby, so I was left to continue with monitoring, and back again in a week, he mentioned that I should seriously start considering a ELCS, but nothing was ever actually mentioned about babies size, but I presume he meant because of babies size and this problem would be less chance of fetal distress. We continued with monitoring, and went back at 39+1 to the consultant, where my ex-husband said 'you've told us we are having a section, just tell us where and when and we will be there' the consultant said he would have a MW ring and book us in that afternoon, when the MW rang she said you have a choice of dates, tomorrow or 5 days time (my due date). We chose to go in the next day, as we just couldn't wait to meet baby.

But my MW this time didn't listen to the full story, all she heard was 'problem, blood flow, placenta' and decided it was an EMCS, and that because it was an emergency, I don't qualify for an ELCS this time!!
I am really not bothered about having a TOLAC, but I just want a straight forward birth. I have a fear of not being able to get the baby out, I'll end up in theatre having a dreaded forceps delivery, then maybe even going on to have a EMCS!!

I still have to have a consultant appointment, due to being high risk as I have a previous CS (yes, very contradictory) so I will raise my concerns then.

And I really want to know if I had an EMCS or and ELCS. Its pissing me off now!!


Anyway back to today! Here's 14 week bump pic!

(excuse the mess on my bedroom floor! Teenagers are not very good at tidying their crap up!)

Weirdly, morning sickness has been bad these past few days, I really thought I'd got lucky and given the whole MS a big fat swerve, but nope! We had a McDonald's for dinner last night, and pickles make me feel sick at the best of times, but Bongo had taken his yukky yukkys (what pickles are called in this house) out of his burger and left them on his plate, when I went to take his plate out, these horrible soggy, green snotty looking disgusting things were just sat looking at me on his plate, I actually was sick in my mouth, I had to swallow it to shout at Bongo to take the plate off me, the dumbass stood up and closed the fucking window and left me standing there unable to move with sickness, holding this plate of yukky yukkys. I swear, that mans on another fucking planet recently!Then went to the bathroom and puked, hard!!!

I've had the results of my Nuchal Screening scan and blood test, I am Low Risk for Downs Syndrome. My results are a 1 in 2198 chance of having a baby with DS. So no further testing for  us, although we had agreed that it wouldn't affect us at all, and we would just deal with the circumstances. We had looked into the possibility of heart conditions in DS children, and other risks, and we know we would have coped.

I have a quiet week this week, no scans or appointments, so I plan on taking it easy!