Would like to apologise in advance for the really long post as I have been keeping a diary so far, and I am half way through my cycle, so just bringing everything up to date in this one post.
8th AUGUST 2012
OUR FIRST APPOINTMENT
Today was our initial consultation appointment and Patient Information Evening (PIE). We discussed our history and possible plan of treatment, the treatments were discussed in full detail.
We were told that Bongo has to have another pot wank done, for their records, we have to attend the PIE and then book our Consent Consultation.
PIE was very informative and amusing, a the husband of one of the couple there went grey and passed out, they were not even discussing blood and needles or anything gory at that point! I'm gad I was sat at the back, i was like a naughty kid at school, crying with laughter! They showed us a slideshow showing every minute step of the process and the embryologist came and explained her sid of the treatment as well.
Then the bombshell........ Until you have it in black and white from the PT that you have funding, then I cannot make anymore appointments yet! Well, I presumed they had recieved my funding or else I wouldn't be there, but apparently not! So we walked out of there with mixed emotions. :(
So the next day I started chasing up my funding, again, it took a few hundred phone calls and lots of tears and tantrums, but I finally got it! I'm sure when my phonbill comes in, I could probably have funded it myself!
But we got on and booked Bongos pot wank and Consent Consultation!!
20TH AUGUST 2012
POT WANK
Very proud of my Bongo, he went in and done what he had to do without any anxiety or performance issues! We get our results at the Consult appointment.
We had a typical Bongo moment though, Bongo has what we shall call, sticky fingers (and I don't mean from the SA). He came out and handed me a little white packet, which he presumed was a handy wipe, like you get a KFC, I took it, grateful for the thoughtful present, and then read it, it was a packet of lube!! I asked him what I would need a packet of lube for?? At least it lightened the moment, and we had a good laugh about it in the hours journey home.
We had borrowed a friends car to get to this appointment, and I had left the packet of lube in the door pocket, a few days later I had a phone call asking why there was a packet of lube in the car!! Whoopsy!!
5TH SEPTEMBER 2012
CONSENT CONSULTATION
Firstly, we went in to see the finance officer, who took our ID and explained we have one IVF and this includes any embryo freezing, then after one year, we have to pay £170 per year storage charge, I can certainly live with that! But any FET we want in the future (if we have any frosties) would have to be paid for privately, which is approx £800 per FET unmedicated. Again, I can probably live with that.
Then we went in to see my named nurse, Victoria, we filled in the consent forms etc and got Bongos pot wank results from 2 weeks ago. They like to have a count of 20million per ml and 40% motility. Bongos was 125 million per ml and 46% motility. So in Victorias words.. an excellent result!
Bongo now thinks he is THE MAN
I also agreed to be part of a study for AMH which would just mean one extra visit for scans and B/W around CD1-5 of my next cycle.
I was also told that I could start treatment my next AF, so she needs to hurry the hell up!!
I also went for my baseline scan and mock embryo transfer.
The ET was a bit uncomfortable, but not unbearable, she couldn't find my cervix to begin with, so was moving that spectulum around like nobodies business, and then had to bend the catheter slightly to get it through my cervix, but this was all down to my retroverted uterus., she just asked that I have a fuller bladder on the actual day of ET as it smoothes everything out in there and makes it easier. When she took the spectulum out though, I nearly went though the ceiling, I always have this problem, it feels like my insides have completely cramped up and she is going to rip my insides out as she takes the spectulum out.
Here, will be a detailed account of my first date with the dildo cam! I have pictures of our first date, it was love at first sight and I just know there will be a few more date to follow, the we shall see how it goes.
She done my scan transvaginally and said my lining was excellent, no pylops or fibroids. Then we get to my ovaries (bear in mind I am CD23), I have ten follicles on my right ovary and seven on my left. I seem to have one very big folly/cyst on my right ovary, so she's not sure if its the corpus luteum from ovulation this cycle, or a cyst as the ovary itself is a bit swollen as well. She recommends I am borderline polycycstic (something I have always suspected), but said this is excellent for iVF, as more follies = more eggs and of better quality.
I have to go back between CD1-5 next week and have this cyst checked, which can and will be done during the AMH research scan and if it is a cyst, they will wheel me down to theatre and drain it so hopefully we won't have to put my IVF cycle off.
I'm feeling a bit sore and tender today after all the prodding and poking, but I keep telling myself, suck it up bitch, its going to get worse!
SO, here are my tentative dates, going on AF arriving on time on Tuesday -
CD1 - 11th September - prescription and drugs shipped out to me
CD1-5 - Another baseline scan to check cyst on my right ovary and AMH research scan and B/W
CD21 - Start Doown Regulating with Synarel Nasal Spray
23rd October - Down regulation scan and B/W to check I have sucessfully DRd
24th October - Start Menopur injections to start stimming those follies
CD10 - 2nd November - Scan and B/W to check size of the follies, may have a few more days of stimming depending on how those follies are behaving.
36 Hours before ER, do Ovitrelle (trigger shot), I will be told the exact date and time at the scan.
5th November - ER and start making those babies in a petri dish! Conventional IVF for us, due to Bongo's super sperm!
7th - 12th Novemeber - ET, hoping to do a Day 5 transfer, and decide if we are putting one or two embryos bacl.
21st November - POAS
11th SEPTEMBER 2012
AF was due today, but she decides to hide! Of
all the cycles to do it!! So I started drinking Raspberry Leaf Tea, which I find really yummy!
I have also started a bit of a better diet, if you can call it that? One cup of coffee in the morning, only herbal teas, water and fresh juice. No tablets or painkillers if I can help it. (I need them daily for endo and a badly healed complete rupture of my achilles tendon) No drinking and partying!
I have been looking into trying some aromatherapy oils for burning, for relaxation and calmness during treatment.
15th SEPTEMBER 2012
Still no AF! Where the hell is she? I cannot believe she is playing these games!
I thought I would try a few natural things to bring on AF, such as RLT and rampant BDing, but still nothing! So I have decided to go intot own and try and find some PennyRoyal, either essential oil or have a chinese herbalist make me some tea infusion up. PennyRoyal is supposed to be excellent at bring F on.
So I go into the Chinese herbalist and explain the situation. that I am scheduled for IVF and if AF didn't arrive today, I would have to change my whole schedule. He didn't understand what I was saying and tried selling me some tablets to 'help prepare my uterus for pregnancy' and he kept ranting about the scret main ingredient, I did wonder if I was in KFC at one point, until he pointed out his secret main ingredient............SEMEN!!!! (I hope the isn't in Colonel Sanders secret receipe)
EWWWWWWWWWW!! NO THANKS!! You can keep your spunk to yourself!!
So I decided to sulk, couldn't find anyone or anything to help bring AF on and I knew I was going to have to change my schedule now, so I decided to go out and get rat arsed pissed, I had a fantastic night out, really relaxed, stopped thinking about IVFs and AFs, it was just what I needed!
16th SEPTEMBER 2012
Woke up with oral pain, again, I think its my gums, (I have bad gums due to medications I have been on over the years for depression and bipolar) but every now and again, the pain ramps up
to
the most excruciating pain and I just cannot tell if its the tooth or the gum.
(I know its the gum, I was a dental nurse long enough to know the score) so I'm
back having to take painkillers, which I'm really disappointed with myself about.
Yay!! Yay!! Yay!! Finally the witch has landed!! I don't ven feel the need to
take painkillers for AF, because for me, its a good pain, it means we are
moving onwards and upwards (or that just may be the painkillers I took earlier
for my gum/tooth pain talking)
At 11pm, so I expect when I ring the clinic in the morning, they will say
tomorrow is going to be CD1
17th SEPTEMBER 2012
What
should have been a happy day for me because I am finally booking my IVF cycle,
has turned into the day from hell.
Firstly, lets get the good news out the way, I rang the clinic, to book my
cycle, agreed, we shall call today CD1, we will have to change my tentative
dates now, I have a new tentative schedule, but the exact one will be posted to
me today. My drugs will be couriered to me within 10-14 days, we are ready to
rock and roll!!
My scan and bloods for AMH and the cyst they found on my right side is booked
for Thursday 20th September 2012.
Then, as you know, I have gum/toothache, so I ring my old practice where I was
manager years ago (I'm very loyal, I would never see another dentist) but was
told he wasn't in today, so I have to wait until tomorrow!!! God, I am in so
much pain!! So I done something a bit naughty. I know damn well whats going on
in there, I need antibiotics. I haven't taken antibiotics for years, I haven't
needed to, but I was given an Rx a while ago, because I kept getting cystitis, but
I never took them. So I started taking them today for my oral pain. Within
12-14 hours of taking them, I felt slightly better, but I have been the most
awful person to be around, my day didn't get any better.................
Some of you will remember the drama of my SIL a few month back, with her announcing her bfp in an insensitive way, etc etc........
Well for some reason, and I have no idea why, both my brother and SIL deleted
me off FB, never returned my calls or texts and basically walked out of my
life, I haven't had ANY contact with them for months. Then Monday morning out of
no where, she texts me to tell me shes pregnant again!! So I politely asked why
she was being such a nasty bitch and telling me this when they haven't spoken to
me for months?? But I just got loads of rambling bullshit responses that didn't
make any sense and she was just digging a hole deeper for herself, in the end I
did let rip!
So I decide to text my brother and ask why she done this to me? And he
basically said that the reason they have been avoiding me is because they didn't
want me to know until she was 12 weeks and they wanted to come and tell me to
my face!! Errr, does that make any sense?? So why didn't she wait until 12 weeks
and then come and tell me to my face? Why did she text me on a Monday morning
out of the blue and tell me then?? By this time, I knew she had taken his phone
and was texting, not him, and that the reason she did text me and tell me this
morning, she told me because I had been nasty to her when she text me!! Still
doesn't make any sense to me, so I text back asking them to clarify that she
told me she was pregnant out of spite because she felt I had been nasty?? Can
they re read the texts and show me where and when I was nasty before she made
her big announcment?? Funnily enough, I've had no reply to that!!
Anyway, a mixed bag of emotions today, and a very painful mouth!!
My
new tentative schedule
(to be confirmed this week)
CD1 - 17th September = Schedule and meds shipped out to me
CD4 -20th September = Another baseline scan to check cyst on my right ovary has
gone and bloods
CD21 - 7th October = Start Down Regulation with Synarel Nasal Spray
30th October - Down regulation Scan and B/W to check I have successfully down
regged.
31st October - Start Menopur injections
CD10 - 9th November = Scan and B/W to check the size of follies, may have
to have a few days of this depending on follies
36 hours before ER, do trigger shot, will be told exact date and time at scan
12th November - Egg Retrival and start making those babies!! Conventional IVF
for us,with regards to Bongos SA.
14th - 17th - Embryo Transfer, hoping to do a Day 5 Blasto Transfer, and decide
if we are putting back one or two embryos.
28th November – POAS
18th SEPTEMBER 2012
Went
to the dentist, and I was right (of course I was) an have a new Rx for
amoxycillin.
I'm still in absolute agony and taking painkillers left right and centre! I'm
really annoyed with myself for not being able to cope with this pain, and
annoyed with my body that the one cycle I really need and want to be perfect
has been fucked up already!!
So I popped into town today to fill my Rx for my mouth and I ended up
picking up a couple of bottles of Feroglobin. Apparently its the UK equivelent
of GERITOL (AKA Baby-In-A-Bottle), which I have been wanting to try during my
IVF, but you cannot buy it in the UK and I would have to re mortgage the house
to have it shipped here from the states. I am over the moon that I found that!!
Its not the yummiest of concoctions, I have to admit!
21ST SEPTEMBER 2012
So
I went for my scan and bloodwork yesterday.
I normally bleed really well, but I think my body is protesting against the
lack of caffeine, it took her half an hour, 2 needles, one butterfly and a call
to the anaesthetist to get 4ml of blood from me! She thinks I was dehydrated,
but considering I had been for a pee 3 times while we were waiting, I'm not at
all surprised! She said I will get the results of these tests if I get my BFP or the cycle after if I get a BFN.
Then we went for the scan, the cyst has disappeared! Yay! So I'm good to
continue with IVF this cycle!
She done a folly count (CD4), I have 10 follies on my right side and 5 follies
on my left, she seemed quite surprised by that, but didn't explain why.
She also asked if my AF had stopped, which it had, and that isn't anything out
of the norm for me, from CD4, I will stop full flow and sometimes have an hour
or so of spotting every day until CD5/6. She knew that just by looking at the
screen!
She also mentioned some 'free fluid', but again she wasn't concerned about
that, I'm taking it that its just fluid from the ruptured cyst?
So now, its just the waiting game for my medication to be delivered to me and
my proper schedule, which should hopefully be here for the 1st October, to
start sniffing the Synarel on 7th October.
26th SEPTEMBER 2012
Well,
I think I am having a natural Ovulation, which is really annoying, because I
can't BD, or if I do, I have to use condoms! Under no circumstances am I to try
and catch the egg naturally this cycle, as I am to start sniffing next Monday
to down regulate.
The one cycle I have perfect O signs as well, EWCM and LEFT sided Ovulation
pains!! (I know, left sided, which makes me want to try even more, because its
completely different to my usual right sided ovulation!)
The pharmacy just rang, and all my meds will be delivered between 1pm and 6pm
tomorrow!
I'm excited to have a look at everything
Exciting times ahead!! It seems so very real now!
27th SEPTEMBER 2012
Great,
I have thrush, thanks to the antibiotics I took for my sorely mouth!!
But, on the plus side, all my meds arrived at 8am and I will be adding pictures
and explaining whats the meds are for and when to take them!
I rang the clinic, because the absolute schedule wasn't with my medication
delivery, and the nurse rang me back and said it had been posted to me and I
should have received it by now, and if I haven't received it by Monday, to give
them a call, as soon as I put the phone down, the letter arrived in the post
today!!!
THE MEDS
Synarel Nasal Spray - This is a nasal spray I have to use from CD21 this cycle to down regulate before I start stimming.
Menopur - Stimms! Hopefully I will only have to stimm for 10 days, so not too many injections
Ovitrelle - HCG trigger shot, to release the eggs from the follicles. at exactly 36 hours before ER. I will be given an excat date and time at one of my scans. I may even have to get up in the middle of the night to take it1
Voltarol - This is a painkilling suppository that I am to use recatlly (eeek) before I go in for ER
Cyclogest - Progesterone suppositories I am to use after ER (rectally then vaginally after transfer) to help sustain a pregnancy. I will have to use these up to 10 weeks into pregnancy if I get my BFP.
Also, you can't have all these injections without your very own sharps bin!
7th OCTOBER 2012
Well
today was the day I started down regulating, kind of scary really, when I
think about what I am just about to put my body through.
I had the medication in front of me and just kept looking at it, like OH MY
GOD, this is REALLY happening.
I took my two squirts of my nasal spray, and boy, did it sting! (I do wonder if
this is anything to do with my nose being broken in the past)
I started getting cramps, but I think that may be a bit psychological, but
Charlie let me lay in bed for an hour and took the dog out for a walk for me.
So, now I have officially started my IVF cycle and I'm very excited.
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On a different note, Bongo has been behaving a bit weird for a couple of weeks
now, being very distant and working on his days off, which has really had me
worried, I worried our relationship maybe broken, or that he didn't actually
want to go through with the IVF. I had tried talking to him, but he always
found an excuse to go to the bathroom or something or other, Its really been
bothering me and upsetting me.
I had friends round or dinner last night and he was being very quiet and
withdrawn, I had a lovely night apart from that. So I got stroppy, got in a
mood and said we needed to talk. He went into the bathroom again and said he
was getting ready for bed.
I decided tot take the dog for her last walk of the evening, and he got
dressed, I told him not to bother, but he insisted, we walked around for a bit
and I asked again, what was going on?
He told me he is worried about how I will react if I do get pregnant and have
another MC after going through everything. (because someone we know just had
her IVF there and had a MC at 6 weeks) I asked him not to transfer his fears
onto me, and make his fears seem like mine. If he has fears, he has to own
them!
I also explained that there are sooooo many things that could go wrong, I may
not respond to the meds, I may have no eggs, they may not fertilise, the embies
may not implant. It's only a 50% chance of it happening anyway. I am being
realistic about this, and I think thats more me being positive than negative,
I'm not giving myself false hope. Not yet.
He has been very apologetic and loving since we have had the chat, and he
realises he should have just talked to me. But whats done is done now, and we
are moving onwards and upwards with this journey.
8th OCTOBER 2012
This medication is knocking me for six!
I'm really struggling with it, my emotions and my side effects. I have turned
into the biggest divvy in the world, my spelling has gone to shit, I can't
concentrate on anything, I'm really clumsy and I have the patience of a gnat.
I didn't know if I should post about it or not, because it makes me seem really
ungrateful to be having the treatment, but I have decided, this is an honest
journal, so I should write about everything and every change.
Down Regulation Day 2
Today was not a good day, I am worn out from taking the dog out every hour or
so, I am used to sitting in front of my computer every day, whether it be
catching up with friends on FB or working on my mums new business she has just
started. I don't regret for one minute getting Sophie, I just forgot how much
hard work puppies were! She has completely trashed my house. I am constantly
running around trying to stop her from eating the whole place, at least it's
getting me prepared for when and if I have a toddler!!
But I just had a hard time coping today, I hurt from the 4 mile walks I'm
doing, and exhausted from having my friend here with all her kids here all
weekend. Her kids are not the best behaved, they have behavoural disorders,
their dad has just abandoned them, but they trash the house more than Sophie,
they eat all my food, they break anything they look at. They just help
themselves to my belongings (iPhone, iPad, PC) and I have had to reboot all of
these and delete virus' off my PC. I have had them here because my friend is
having a hard time with the divorce and does'nt want to bump into her ex who
only lives around the corner. They have themselves in a vicious circle of doing
anything and everything they can to ruin each others lives, and I had simply
had enough and was trying to keep her away from doing all the childish things
she was doing. I spent a fortune cooking them all dinner.
Anyway, as I said Monday I was having a bad day, I was very bad day, very
tired, I felt like I physically had flu, I was emotionally and physically
drained. Firstly she rung to tell me her and my other mate were going out for
breakfast, that in itself hurt that I didn't get an invite, but after
everything I had done for her over the weekend it REALLY cut me up. Later on in
the day I could not stop crying (just hormonally, not for any reason), I text
her and told her I was crying and was feeling really emotional, but she
literally ignored that text and text me back asking me to wind up her ex
husbands new girlfriend. Well, that done it for me! MAJOR BREAKDOWN!!! I
switched my phone off, refused to speak to anyone, emailed Bongo at work then
went to bed to cry and sulk all day.
9th OCTOBER 2012
Down Regulation Day 3
Today was a bit of a better day, Bongo took the day off after he received my
email, so he left me in bed to have a lay in, and low and behold, my friend
knocks on the door at 9am to see if I was OK and if I needed anything, because
they had been trying to get hold of me all night and couldn't. I told her what
she had done to make me feel like shit, she went back over her text messages
and saw the text that she had ignored and was very apologetic (not like her at
all) We had an OK day, Bongo made us brunch (even though he was still really
pissed off with her)
10th OCTOBER 2012
Down Regulation Day 4
Again, a not so bad day, Bongo was off again, so the pressure of the puppy was
out of my hands, even though her nipping is getting a bit out of control. This
is starting to upset me, I feel I have no control over this dog and my
emotions.
11th OCTOBER 2012
Down Regulation Day 5
Bit of a drama with my other friend, she is staying in a friends flat while he
lives with his girlfriend, shes paying rent, but has no tenancy agreement. The
bloke text her at 8am this morning, telling her she has 4 weeks to move out.
They have an argument, she got very upset and came to me, so I made her a cup
of tea, printed off housing forms, rang our local housing association and made
an appointment to go and see the housing team next week. As selfish as this
sounds, it took my mind off my own feelings and problems until later in the
day...............
Had some stress with some family issues today, which I won't go into, but it has knocked me for six, made me an emotional ball of psychoticness.
I had to take some medication to get to sleep tonight, which I really didn't
want to do while doing treatment.
12th OCTOBER 2012
Down regulation Day 6
I stayed in bed practically all day, I'm so depressed, a combination of the
meds and the situation with his mother. I emailed him at work to tell him as
such. I woke up at 1pm to find Bongo standing over me, he had rushed home from
work because he was so worried about me.
We still didn't get any further about what we should do about the situation
though
13th OCTOBER 2012
Down Regulation Day 7
Bongo's rest day/day off, Another day goes by with nothing accomplished about
his mother, so I decided to go and have a drink with my friends
14th OCTOBER 2012
Down Regulation Day 8
BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD DAY!!
Bongos Rest day/day off again. I have been feeling quite upset and woozy from
the meds, and really didn't want to get up. But I had to, Charlie was here and
I had to wash his school uniform and we were going to a friends for a roast
dinner at 4pm.
Charlie ended up being so naughty and mouthy (typical teenager, as I thought)
but he just got worse and worse. Really rude and nasty to me.
(I had better explain his father and I have joint residency, he's at his dads
from Monday to Friday and mine from Friday to Monday)
This argument escalated out of control, my hormones, his teenage hormones
clashed on a major scale. I had to ring his dad and step-mum to come and help
me, and to see what he was doing to me (as last time it got this bad, he went
and told his dad a few porkys and me and his dad ended up having a major row as
well) Dinner at my friends was cancelled.
It turns out Charlies behaviour has been like this for a while at theirs as
well, his school have been in touch with his dad about his behaviour, he is
taking anger management classes and keeps getting detentions (his dad had
already told me about this, but the school will not accept the 'joint
residency' and will only communicate with his dad, as he has the custody during
the week, even though we have both sent them court orders)
We had a good chat about a lot of things and a lot of problems of Charlies were
aired that needs addressing. So that is my main concern right now. But od
course, Id o not need that Psycho being in the back of my mind while trying to
help my son.
I pulled Bongo aside later that night, and really laid into him about not
talking to me or doing anything about this situation with his mother, I don't
want to be alone in the house, I'm too scared to answer the phone, I don't want
to live my life like this and he is doing nothing to protect me from that, I
also went so far as to say if my IVF fails because of the stress she is putting
me under, which I feel reallly bad about saying now, but I think it has finally
got through to him how bad I'm feeling. He wanted to take Monday off and phone
the police, but he's had all weekend to do that! He knows she is not going to
go away, he's the first to say it
15th OCTOBER
Down regulation Day 9
Woke up feeling very emotional and tired again, worried about being on my own.
The dog is misbehaving, the bird won't stop screeching and I've switched my
mobile off, not just because of his mother, but I have switched myself off
against the world.
I'm sorry this isn't much of an entry for my IVF journey, but I think my
responses, reactions and emotions to do with the above dramas, have been
affected by the medications.
Anyway, I hope tomorrow is a better day
Today is CD29 and am due AF/withdrawel bleed.
I have been told this could be twice as bad as normal AF so I am really not looking forward to it, but hopefully it will be the last one for over a year!
I am really bloated today, I'm not sure if it's the meds or AF or a combination of both, but I am an uncomfortable miserable cow today!
16th OCTOBER 2012
AF/withdrawel bleed arrived today, really painful and really heavy. I spent most of the day in bed.
I have found the my insomnia has become much worse since I started DRing, even with diazepam, I can't sleep, but my mood has improved slightly.
I still think all my tears and tantrums were warranted last week, but I could have dealt with the situations better. It just goes to show much the medication does actually affect you.
Luckily, Bongos boss has insisted he takes the rest of the week off until Friday, so I have him here to help me in and out of bed and to walk the dog.
17th OCTOBER 2012
AF is still really really bad, I wasn't able to sleep on my back at all,
because I was flooding and I would end up laying in my own AF. YUK!
18th OCTOBER 2012
AF still bad, but got some errends to run today, get myself all
prepared, mooncup in, night time sanitary towel, 2 pairs of knickers, all just
for an hour to leave the house.
Then I get a phone call from Charlie, he has been to hospital and is home now,
(his dads) he dropped some equipment on his foot in PE, when they managed to
extract his foot from under the equipment, his toe nail was missing! He has
been to hospital, nothing actually broken, but a very messy goo where his big
toe should be, it is strapped up and needs to be re-dressed ever other day. I
said I'm popping into your dads to see you (no I didn't asked this time!)
Obviously, I was quite pissed off that I had been told AFTER the fact, it turns
out his dad was getting a tattoo done at the time of the phone call, so a
friend of theirs went to go and collect Charlie and take him to hospital. (This
friend is the girl who was stalking me a few months ago, and I ended up having
to remove from my life, turning up at my house and calling me a liar when I
said I wasn't in, then actually knocking on my door asking Bongo if she could
check to see if I was lying! She has made some nasty accusations about me on FB
since and is the kind of girl that is very spiteful if she has been made to
look a bit silly by me saying she isn't welcome in my life anymore)
Bongo and I were both home when the accident happened, I am a 2 min drive from
their house and it would have taken me exactly the same amount of time to get
to the school!
But I bit my tongue and asked my ex-husband to say thank you to her for her
help with Charlie today. Inside I was fuming, but that wasn't the time or the
place!
Charlies foot is very badly damaged, they have said about a year to heal
properly He
will be home for the weekend tomorrow.
Had my 16 year old nephew stay tonight to help with the dog tomorrow as Bongo
is back at work tomorrow
19th OCTOBER 2012
AF
has calmed down, thankfully, as Bongo is back at work and Charlie is home,
incapacitated today!
He has been and had his dressing changed this morning, it all seems ok,
according to father of the year.
Later on that evening, we notice that it is bleeding through the waddings and
waddings of bandages, with some yellow serum (quite normal). Obviously my first
call is to his dad, I then get him in the car and drive round there for him to
see it himself.
We make a joint decision to take the dressings off for an hour or so and let
some air get to it to help it heal a bit, I shall re-dress it and then see how
it is tomorrow. I actually think my son is a super hero, not one complaint or
tear, in fact, being the typical teenager, took pictures BBM'd them to his mates
to gross them out!
I go to go outside do something and find my ground floor neighbours cat has
shit on our landing and on my elderly next door neighbours doorstep, I have to
clean this up obviously! I am not happy one bit about this, as all us
TTCers/LTTCCers know, toxoplasmosis in cat shit is a big no no!! When I went
downstairs to give them a talking to, I see she is about 7 months pregnant So
because she is a big fat pregnant cow I
have to clean her cat shit up????? Because she doesn't warn to harm her unborn
child?! I do not find this a coincidence that she is pregnant and now her cat
shits everywhere! It's not even like she's single, her DH could clean it up!!
I've told Bongo if it happens again, he is to say something!
I looked after my other downstairs neighbours 2 year old boy for 10 mins this
evening when she went to the shop (what a sweetheart!) and got given a bottle
of Rose and a big bar of galaxy for it! What a result! Just what I needed!
AGGGHHH, why did I decide to get so many pets, and why do I have an OH that
just doesn't listen! Not even worth explaining, just WHY??????
20th OCTOBER 2012
Not
a bad day AF wise, she has practically buggered off, so feel a lot better, but
started winding myself up over the whole Charliegate on Thursday. Charlies foot
is still bleeding, so I ring his dad again, as I feel this is the normal thing
to do?! We discuss the foot etc etc. Then I say as nicely as I can that next
time there is an emergency, could I please have a phone call as soon as it
happens, the cheek of it, he said it didn't even enter my head to call
you'...........
I said well I am his mother and if you are unable to get to him then the second
port of call should ALWAYS be me, not a family friend!!!! I also made the point
that they were used to get at me, as Charlie has told me that it was the family
friend who wouldn't let Charlie call me to tell me he was injured and in
hospital as she knows I would have been there like a shot and said very kindly
thanks, but your not needed anymore! She wanted to play mummy to my son!! (she
has 4 kids of her own, fuck off!!) Charlie also said that she was making fun of
me because I didn't know what was going on and she was slagging me off the
whole time he was in hospital.
I made my point perfectly clear, I am his mother, I should be there, I should
be informed immediatley and that it really is wrong to call someone who he
knows will use this to hurt me! He got the arse a little bit, but conceeded
that everything I said was true.
Anyway, I undressed it again, its a mess, left it to the air a bit and then
re-dressed it to go to bed
But back to ME!!
I decided, that 2 months of no sex was probably a bit much for Bongo, and
decided to have ACTUAL SEX!!
We fumbled around with the condom as we have never used them before! Turns out
he still put it on inside out!!
But I'm so dry down there its unbelievable! I was really really enjoying it,
but it was like the Sahara down there, then I thought 'oh god, he's going to
think I'm not enjoying it'
But it was soooooooo nice to have sex for the fun of it, ACTUAL SEX, no babies
in the back of my head at all. It was a novelty!!
We laid there afterwards and said how different it was! I did explain that I
was sorry about the dryness and its the medication, he said he understood!
Bless him!
Went to the bathroom a little while later to see it had started me off bleeding
again, very heavy!
I think I'll wait until AF is completely over until I do that again!!
21st OCTOBER
My
bloody nasal spray has run out, so had to open a new one half way through my
dose, so think I took 2 and a half sprays instead of only two!
Woke up a little later to hear the cat scratching behind my bedroom curtains and
on my lovely cream bespoke curtains my mum had made for me, she had been to
toilet by accident bless her, because the dog had just been barking. She is
getting old as well. So I gloved up, ripped the curtain down and have had to
throw it away. Ive bleached and used the alcohol handwash like an ODCer.
But Yay! The bleeding has stopped, maybe I can do that actual sex again
tonight, I quite enjoyed that!! I haven't had actual sex in 11 years! I forgot
what it was like!!
